tellin what i feel..:(

suupppeerrr! grr! you know i cant stand this anymore:((
im so stress here alone at home[house ni bf]
feelin' qh sasabog na utak ko kakaisip ng kung ano-ano:|
i cant wait to have a stable job, my own house and car..

anyways,, you know the feelin of being a prison by your
own self? you know how to escape but you dont want too..
cause your worried of shitss! what im scared about??
i'm losing myself.. i'm really pretendin to be someone else..
just for someone to be fuckin happy.. wait! how about my
happiness? how about me? myself? i lose everything
i want everything i love just for someone..
and now i'm tryin to get it all back.. for somereason i cant..
nasan na ako? nasan na yung dating ako? i thought i was
strong enough to face the world, to face every challenges
in life.. cause madami na akong napagdaanan na pagsubog
and nakaya ko.. but now i just cant.. i'm losing my confidence
and myself.. and i want it, i want myself back..
i know you guys dont know what i'm talkin about cause
i keep it private i just told it to my close friends what it is..
i just dont feel tellin it to the world.. it unhappy things..
kakaiyak na promise.. feelin ko di ko na kaya ituloy toh...:(


sana nakinig ako.=( sana hindi ko nalang pinaglaban.=(
but i'm happy even it hurts more than pain:((