my diet..:(

hello~ everyone!:)
uhmm.. its been awhile again:D
i just want to update about my diet:|
before i create this blog i was on a diet..
and its workin well.. but now i failed again
for how many tries i had:(

the reason:
STRESS & DEPRESSION
--i'm bein' stress of something i want that i can't have:(
--sadness that makes me want to eat alot:(( i hate it!:'(

yes!:( i get stress & depress and my solution is:((
EAT! EAT & EAT!!!:(( and i'm weak and losin my
confidence to go on again.. but i really want to loss weight=\

and here the saddest part:( i feel i'm scared to loss weight:(
for one thing the pain i feel might felt more painful if i lose weight=((
it so sad to think that everyone i know and i will meet is all the same..
they all hurt me and gonna hurt me.. not just my feelings but also
me.. my body:(( i'm scared that i will felt more pain if i lose weight..
coz now the pain they causing me is so much that i can't stand anymore..
i'm scared to meet new people because of them..:( yes! not just one but
almost all of them..:( i thought i was strong enough=(
i really thought of that:'(

i guess i'm gonna go to PLAN B for my diet:D
but before that i'll think and reminisce all the mistake i've done on
PLAN A/first try:D maybe PLAN B will work this time..

my PLAN A/my first to try weight loss:
--was i just eat less
--for dinner just fresh tofu and some meat or salad
--NO EXERCISE:( *boo boo!*
-- and shits~:|

PLAN A was NO NO!
so imma think now and update my diet:D

anyways for those who don't know...
i'm 60kg i think its 132 in pounds
and my weight goal:
-- 1st: 55kg /121lbs
--2nd: 50kg/110lbs
--last: 45kg /99lbs
and maintain it:D*cross finger:D*